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I’ve been thinking a lot about what topic I should blog about next. Every idea I get I dismiss. I don’t know enough about that subject...nobody wants to hear about that...I’m struggling to think of something that I think people will enjoy or relate to. I think I’ve become a bit too focused on the audience and their opinions which wasn’t meant to be the main focus of this exercise. I wanted to be able to just start writing down my thoughts and feelings and for it to be an open book... for people to read and comment on if they choose. I started this blog because I felt like there wasn’t enough people being honest and showing a true representation of their lives on social media. Yet I find myself reading and rereading my blogs to make sure I haven’t offended anyone... to make sure I don’t sound like I’m complaining too much... cutting out parts that I think people will judge me on. Basically editing my blog to make it picture perfect and exactly what I didn’t want it to be 😅

I’m sitting here in the old reclining chair we borrowed from Jordan’s grandma with Oscar asleep on my chest. I’m in my dressing gown, that’s covered in saliva, vomit and baby food. I haven’t been able to shower yet. I’ve got a cold and feel yucky, but you can’t exactly take a day off when you’re a Mum can you 😅 I know I should be taking better care of myself but watching MAFS and eating TimTams sounds much more appealing than cooking myself a healthy lunch and exercising 🤷‍♀️

I’m trying to just live my life one day at a time. Sometimes I get overwhelmed and think what the heck am I doing? This motherhood gig is hard work... and mum guilt is a real thing. I hate that one of the most common questions I’m asked now is... does he sleep through the night? Because the answer is no and he doesn’t like to sleep much during the day either 🙃

I probably shouldn’t blog when I’m not in a good mood because when I’m not feeling good my mind tends to dwell on the negative but I thought that today I would. Today I would just tell it like it is because that was my whole intention in starting this. I think that social media and all the perfect images it portrays somehow makes us feel like we should be feeling good all the time and that we’re doing something wrong or failing if we have a bad day... but that’s real life... we have good days and bad days. When it’s a bad day I try to tell myself.. “it could always be worse” because really my life is good and I shouldn’t let a bad day make me feel like I have a bad life.

Purposely taking time to think about the things in my life that I’m grateful for is something that can help lift my mood and help me start thinking more positively. Also writing “to do” lists and checking them off help me to feel like I’ve achieved something... even if some days it’s only
.shower ✔️
.do the laundry ✔️
.wash the dishes✔️
.make dinner✔️
😂

Well that’s all from me today. Not the most riveting read but hopefully one that’s relatable 😉







Comments

  1. Twitter Qrstuv_RileyFebruary 20, 2020 at 11:46 AM

    Many of us have heard the expression "Endure to the end", but a better version is "Enjoy to the end"
    We cannot always determine how our day is going to be, but we can choose to enjoy the good bits, or the small successes and simple joys.

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    1. JadeFebruary 20, 2020 at 3:50 PM

      That’s true, but there’s nothing wrong with having a bad day either 😅

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    2. The Happy GhostmanFebruary 21, 2020 at 9:34 PM

      Yes, they help us appreciate the good ones. Keep on rolling Jade. Doing great.

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    3. JadeFebruary 22, 2020 at 9:05 AM

      Thanks Caspar 😊

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  2. JantinaFebruary 21, 2020 at 11:01 PM

    What fabulous !!! Loved every letter and especially your writing attire.
    Well done on getting pen to paper.
    You didn’t sound negative to me.
    For me I try to be mindful so don’t do too do lists’ but have been thinking to start them up again.
    Your writing made me think, goals and babies and getting nothing done (my life with babies) it taught me it’s not about the speed of getting goals done, it’s getting them done. I can cross a room with 5 big strides and I can cross the room with 100 tiny steps- it’s that I crossed the room. I am learning the complexity of being nice’ so simple so boring sounding but too be nice’ is truely amazing.
    ‘I think the question is he sleeping through the night’ is not about yours failure’ but to the listener an indication of your hardship (if he isn’t) isn’t a whole nights sleep a wonderful fantasy (and I have a cat who meows to be let out every night at 3am) - Kieren and I threw him out the door just now.
    Great blog, made me think.
    Keep going!

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    1. JadeFebruary 22, 2020 at 9:07 AM

      Thanks Jantina! You make a good point, as long as we’re moving forwards that’s the main thing! 😅

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