Jade.postpartum

 I’m frustrated with myself.  As my last post indicated, I started the year happy, hopeful and progressing... The last few weeks however, I feel like I’ve gone backwards.  Melbourne went into lockdown again (Thankfully for only 5 days this time!) and I feel like I just fell into a hole when that happened. Oscar was sick for pretty much the whole lockdown which didn’t help and definitely contributed to my low mood... but I don’t know, something just snapped and it was like the “everything is ok” facade that I was so determined to uphold slipped and broke. All of a sudden I was just a big old emotional mess again.  I’ll admit I did wallow in it for those 5 days. Healthy eating and exercise was replaced with slothfulness and over-eating. I felt overwhelmed with sadness and flooded with all those negative thoughts and feelings that I’ve been working so hard to overcome.  It was awful. I felt out of control. I didn’t want to stay in this headspace and I needed help. I prayed for comfort. I

 I’m back!  I thought that maybe I would stop blogging because I felt like not many people were reading my entries. I tend to get a bit funny with things like that sometimes... I start to overthink it and worry about silly things...Actually I overthink and worry about silly things in all aspects of my life to be honest 🙃😅  The thing is though that I do enjoy writing and it shouldn’t really matter how many people are reading along. I’m going to keep doing it for me...it’s a bonus if others get something out of it too 😊 So welcome back regular readers! And hello to any new ones 😊  I have started 2021 with a determination to make this year better than the last. To really work on myself and my happiness and I’m pleased to say- so far, so good!  The things that have helped me the most so far in this process of “working on myself” are: 1. Seeing a psychologist  2. Going back to work  3. Exercising and being more mindful about what I’m eating Honestly seeing a psychologist has been one of