Turning Lemons into Lemonade

I’ve really been struggling with my mental health these past few weeks. Living with anxiety and depression is exhausting. I don’t even have to be *doing* a lot, just *being* takes up so much of my energy.

My when my mental health is bad I get triggered a LOT, and it doesn’t take much to tip me over the edge. It’s an obvious sign to me that when I’m getting triggered more than usual it probably means I need more help.

Tomorrow I have an appointment with a new psychologist. I’m hoping that talking to someone different, with a fresh perspective and new ideas is just what I need.

The psychologist I have been seeing previously has been very helpful to me. However, it feels like I got to a certain point and then I stopped progressing. I knew it was time to move on.

I know it can take a little while to find the right fit when it comes to therapy. Fingers crossed this one is a good match, because mental illness only gets worse when you don’t have the right support.

In the meantime, it has been very therapeutic for me to write about my feelings. I have been trying to turn lemons into lemonade by putting myself out there and sharing my story in the hopes of helping others.

I’m excited about the opportunities that have come my way so far since starting this blog and Jade.postpartum.

A few weeks ago I recorded a couple of podcast episodes, one with the wonderful Pinky McKay and the other with The Beyond Sleep Training Project founder, Carly Grubb.

Both of these women have been a huge positive influence and support to me on my journey of motherhood. It was a wonderful experience to chat with them both, and I’m looking forward to you all being able to hear it!

I appreciate those of you reading along and supporting me. Especially being in lockdown and unable to socialise and connect in person, I am grateful for those who are reaching out and being there for me through technology.

Much love,

Jade

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