End of the year, end of a season

As the year draws to a close I thought I would write one last blog. I started the year 2020 with a list of goals and was optimistic and determined to tick them all off! I don’t think anyone could have predicted the events that would unfold and shake up our whole lives let alone our New Years resolutions! 😅

One of the goals that I did achieve this year however, was to start a blog and that I did. I have enjoyed sharing my thoughts with you and I’m grateful for those who’ve supported and encouraged me along the way. I think this will be my last entry for this blog and I hope you’ve enjoyed reading along.

It’s certainly been a bumpy ride for me this year and the list of things I’ve achieved may not be a long one but I am proud of myself for getting through this difficult year. I’m feeling optimistic for the future and looking forward to starting 2021 with some new and exciting things coming my way.

I could write a big list of all the things that sucked about this year but I still think if I were to write a list of everything I’m grateful for it would be much, much bigger. I’ve learned a lot about myself this year. I’ve always been aware of my weaknesses and flaws but now I’m starting to see how strong and resilient I can be. How important it is to ask for help. To forgive and let go of grudges. Accept people for who they are and most importantly to love. I think love is the answer to most of our problems as cliche as it sounds.

Thanks for reading, I hope you can enjoy your Christmas and new year despite the restrictions and change of plans you might be experiencing. We might not get to celebrate the way we would have liked to but if we focus on the true meaning of Christmas and think of ways we can show love to others it will be a special way to end the year ❤️

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