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Still standing

 Lockdown is over here in Melbourne and it feels like a huge weight has been lifted. There are still lots of rules to follow and things we can’t do yet (like visit family interstate) but that taste of “freedom” and the beginnings of a return to normality (at least “COVID normal” 😅) feels so good.


2020 will be known as the “Year that the world stopped”. Being forced to stop everything does have it’s benefits, and has hopefully given us some new and better perspectives. 


For me personally it has been a reminder to always be prepared;

To not take the simple things for granted. 

To take better care of myself physically and mentally

And to cherish and love every moment spent with friends and family. 


Looking back on this year I feel sadness, disappointment and hurt, but scattered amongst the negativity are brightly shining blessings that I am truly grateful for...


My beautiful son and the joy he brings,

My loving and devoted husband,

Support from caring friends and family,

And the peace and purpose that comes from my knowledge of gospel truths. 


Up until this point in my life living the gospel has been easy. I’m a member of the church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and that is a huge, defining part of my identity- I don’t know who I am without my faith. This year has been testing in all aspects and I’ve had to rely on my faith and testimony, clutching onto it like a life-ring to save me from drowning. 


This year and it’s events like a raging sea have truly knocked me down and dragged me under like never before. There were moments I thought I wouldn’t make it, but I’m still here. I’ve held on tight and rode the waves and as weak and broken as I am, I do believe that one day I will look back, wiser, stronger, and grateful for it all. ❤️




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