Can we skip to 2021 yet?

What a crazy year it’s been so far amirite!? 🤪

Living in Melbourne and being in isolation/lockdown for most of the year has made an already challenging stage of life even more lonely and difficult. My mental health has really been suffering lately and I’m sure there are many others feeling it too. Not even being able to go outside without a mask on truly makes me feel like I’m suffocating sometimes.

I know things could be worse and there are people going through harder things than this...but right now, in my life, this is incredibly hard for me. I miss my family and friends in Adelaide that I haven’t seen since January and wonder when I’ll be able to see them again... Oscar is one in a few days and it’s upsetting that we can’t celebrate together and that my family has had to miss out on most of his first year.

I’m trying my best to push past my feelings and be present and patient and happy for my little boy, but more and more I’m finding myself frustrated and snappy and fed up with everything. It feels like there is no end in sight with these restrictions and all I am looking forward to now is when we are finally allowed to go out again... visit our friends and family...travel more than 5ks from our house...and being able to do something for myself...it’s been far too long 😩

Now more than ever, I am so grateful for the gospel and the hope and faith it gives me. We aren’t allowed to physically go to church or the temple, but there have been moments where I have felt so close to God here in my home as I’ve poured out my heart to Him in prayer. It is so easy to think...how can there be a God if there is so much suffering in the world? But I know He will reveal Himself to those who truly seek Him. It may not make sense to us now, but everything does happen for a reason and we can find peace in these troubling times through the Lord.

“And now, my sons, remember, remember that it is upon the rock of our Redeemer, who is Christ, the Son of God, that ye must build your foundation; that when the devil shall send forth his mighty winds, yea, his shafts in the whirlwind, yea, when all his hail and his mighty storm shall beat upon you, it shall have no power over you to drag you down to the gulf of misery and endless wo, because of the rock upon which ye are built, which is a sure foundation, a foundation whereon if men build they cannot fall.” -Helaman 5:12

This is a well known scripture from the Book of Mormon. I’ve heard it many, many times, but I’ve never felt it more relevant than right now.

No matter what happens, we will be ok if we trust God and follow Him.

Everything will be ok in the end...and if it’s not ok, it’s not the end 😅

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