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Nearly one!

Oscar will be a year old next month and I’m already feeling so emotional about it!😭
What a year! I actually feel proud of myself for making it through...we’ve had some really challenging times. Being a mum is HARD! It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done but it’s definitely rewarding at the same time.

The other week I was trying to put Oscar to bed and he was fighting it hard (as always). By the end of the day my patience is worn, I’m exhausted and it’s so frustrating when baby thinks it’s party time instead of sleepy time! šŸ™ƒšŸ™ƒšŸ™ƒ I starting crying and Oscar looked at me, very concerned... he crawled up to me and cuddled me as if to comfort me and after a few minutes he was asleep. It was such a beautiful moment and definitely made me feel like all the struggles are worth it for moments like that 🄰

It’s amazing how fast babies grow and develop and even though the days can seem so long sometimes, it really does go by so quickly! I love watching Oscar learn new things and he is so proud of himself when he figures out how to do something by himself! He has such a cheeky little personality now and is always getting into things and exploring. He loves being around other people but can also be a bit of a mummy’s boy (especially when teething!) I love making him laugh! Hearing his cute little chuckle makes my days so much better. It’s the best feeling in the world to be loved and Oscar has filled my life with so much more love ❤️

I’m sad that we won’t be able to put on a big birthday party for him because of this virus. Even though he won’t remember it, making it through the first year of life is a huge achievement and should definitely be celebrated! I’m excited to continue to watch my little boy learn and grow. For all the milestones he reaches. I will always be his biggest fan and encourage him every step of the way!




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