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Where I’m at right now

It’s been a while since my last post πŸ˜…
To be honest I haven’t been in a good headspace and I wanted to wait til I was feeling a little better.
Everything that’s going on in the world right now has added to my anxieties and overall feeling of uneasiness. I’m sure there are probably a lot of you reading this that have also been feeling a similar way. Being cooped up inside all day isn’t the best for mental health, but it’s important that we do and I’m sure we all know the reasons why by this point.

On Good Friday the Prophet/leader of my church (The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints) instigated a global Fast in response to the virus. Those who participated went without food and water for the day and offered their prayers along with this small sacrifice to plead with God for relief from the pandemic. Although I wasn’t able to avoid food and water due to breastfeeding, I still joined in this fast and spent the day in prayer and meditation.

Whether or not this global fast brings the relief we desperately need, I do know that it has achieved a wonderful result of bringing people together from all around the world, United by the same purpose. For me personally, I was able to set aside my usual distractions and focus on something outside the current negativities inside my mind. The result of this was a warm, positive feeling. A feeling of clarity and peace. Something that I really needed to feel and I am so grateful for it.

At this point in my life I am just trying to take it a day at a time. To not set unrealistic expectations of myself. To accept that things don’t always go to plan. To focus on the things I can control and not let those that I can’t bring me down. To think of the things I am grateful for. Starting the day with a prayer, a smile and a to-do list help me to stay positive, but it’s also ok to feel the negative feelings that I inevitably will feel throughout the day. What I’m trying to work on at the moment is to pick myself back up and not get stuck in that negative mindset.

I’m looking forward to receiving more guidance as I continue to watch the rest of General Conference. I know that God speaks to us through His Apostles and Prophets and through the Holy Spirit. Although it may seem at times that He has abandoned us, we are never alone. We only need to reach out to Him to feel his presence.

Wishing you all a happy Easter, Thanks for reading along xx


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  1. I have a box covered with stickers not far from my bed and the other day I noticed a little one in the middle that says "I ❤️ U Dad - Love Jade".
    That message has been right next to me for many years. It is something I have always known and I hope that you know I will always love you too. We are missing not having you and your family with us for Easter, and pray that you will do well in these challenging times - Love you, Dad.

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  2. Thanks Dad. That means a lot to me. Love you too ❤️

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